Perfectly Imperfect and Ok With That!

you can fool alot of people but you cant fool your food. it tells on you every time, with out care of how you try to hide it. . well i looked at my food intake and was like WOW im not crushing LIFE AT ALL .. Im not eating horilby but im not eating with purpose or consistency.  that honestly reflects in my life and i can see it. getting my house cleaned Friday was step one. onto the food battles. what do you use? MFP is free and user friendly so im jumping back in. Im gond to do a group acountabilty thinging to make it through Thanksgiving so Black Friday sales wont be me buying another dang size up. So pick your approach!  Im gonna ago with fresh stuff, meal prep, my local resources because 1) i wanna learn how to grow my own sustainable veggies so i dont go shopping 3x a week :X 2) im busy and spending too much eating out.. my kid thinks CFA is a food category :( #failingfailingfailing 3) my friends are growing food and making me wanna be one of the cool ...

Those quiet times.... its early AM and I've been up since 430am. These thoughts may not make sense but hey, its whats on my mind. Monday so far.. I got up, intended to run but MiniMe ended up with me last night. I've found that over stimulation creates mommification . Not mummification...mommification. When she gets to "mommy mommy mommy! i miss love you so much!  i want you!  mommy!" etc...first of all I melt and I dont care if she's playing me. second, its bc she's been over stimulated and has had lots and lots of fun. Is there anything wrong with that? Im forever and ever always trying to figure it out. You add to it a broken home which equates to broken up bringing..atleast for a time. I've made the conscious effort to reduce the amount of brokenness this family feels but at the end of the day, processes and perceptions are broken. However, so is the bottle on creativity, sufficiency, and stay power - that bottle of bubbling energy and tenacit...

Date Night #winning #fun #whatdoimeanwhenihashtaghmmmm I had this convo with my boyfriend. He dosen’t get it. Hashtagging, and the whole social pheonemon of saying less with less, and saying more in a confusing way (ie, hastag lines longer than the Orgeon Trail). So to have a common ground, and no applicable lessons on hashtagging, we  watched JT and Jimmy kill them hashtags  https://www.youtube.com/watch? v=57dzaMaouXA   but still he doesn’t get it?? Haha to be fair. I don’t even get it.  After a total #fail of explaining anything in a form of making sense, I further muddied my own thoughts (stay with me…) . At the end of the day, its just communication. Written or stated it’s all just communication. HOWEVER. if we change the way that the communication is relayed, ie, put it in a different format for usage, can it still be properly received? HUHHHHH?? OK SORRY had a moment.  I mean.. if you write a book, and you then read it, do t...

So this won't be a very long post but just kind of posing a question… Do you take pictures just to compare them a year or two years or three years later? It's amazing to me the difference that a couple of years makes. Example… I previously posted this  before and after picture on my page. I remember in the picture on the left, I'd had a baby, she was about two and finishing up breast-feeding, I would have just finished training and completing my first half marathon, and I was just happyto have started running again. I felt great then and knew that I was doing a lot better then I had been in years.  My weight loss journey began after pregnancy in 2010. I look at the picture that I took just the other day on the right, and I see confidence, EFFING  muscles I didn't know existed, and a single divorcee mama making it. Five years or six years ago I would've never imagined that I'd be where I am today, nor experienced the good and the bad which have been interesting l...