Perfectly Imperfect and Ok With That!

No one likes to talk about money right? Well oh well! Im blogging about my embarrassing but well received learning adventure.  So you know that mortifying feeling when you get to go check out and you don't have enough money? or your credit/debit card gets rejected at the check out ? Sorta had this feeling a couple of months ago... Read on...   The Mortification... I don't check my credit often - no reason to (I thought). Well I randomly got rejected for something that I knew was well w/in my budget/means, etc bc I don't use credit often. Well, got a response in the mail that I was not approved. I was confused, and right there, the rejection reason? Bankruptcy. I get that. An institution not wanting to issue me a credit card or whatever due to filing bankruptcy. Could be a bit of a risk? Maybe want to be sure I'm back on my feet? Again, understood. Soooooo - Why did I have issue with this?? I. Never. Filed. For. That.   I completely flippe...

 WHERE HAVE I BEEN?!?!   :) I have been working on ME! I’ve been a bit quiet because I thought, how can I movtivate if there is some question in me that I’m not doing enough? Then it hit me – across the head like all things seem to – HARD! I needed to look in a mirror. I remember being told to do this in grad school as a personal development project. Look in the mirror, even if it just for 1 min..and just DEAL with yourself.   Don’t say a word, don’t let yourself be interrupted. Do you like what you see? What comes to mind? What makes you anxious? What can you do?   Then ask yourself..what are you doing?   I did this and almost cried.   I have so many dreams, I love the lives I touch, and I love the progress I’ve made but I’ve been made for more. FEAR holds me back. Fear of upsetting people, fear of failing and the shame that follows that. Fear of not being enough. Wow. I couldn't believe I was ready to own and overcome that. So h...