Perfectly Imperfect and Ok With That!

... Sometimes it's to connivingly squeeze citric acid into the wound lol. Didn't see that one coming did you!?! Well I'm not being negative today, just noticing that when I have any sort of negative energy, it creates a negative aura around all things until I PURPOSEFULLY put a stop to it. So last weekend I lost my drivers license. That was zero fun and I'm really not quite sure where I left it. So I decided to carry around my passport, after I went to get my license replacement order done because that's the only other picture ID I have. Well I guess Magic Mike was magical and so was me leaving my purse open, on the ground, during the show bc I'm pretty sure thats where I lost my wallet... With my passport in it. Which I didn't discover until Saturday afternoon when I wanted to buy a coffee. So! Lessons to be learned? I can't really list good ones here other than to say:  PAY ATTENTION! And I mean more to your mood than to normal life situation.  I g...

Hi My name is Jessica and I’m admittedly diagnosed with  ADHD. Watching my feed it’s like, “right. was there a question? You randomly dress in tutus”  However, I’ve always been more than functional with this, but sometimes, or rather for me, one time, it got to be more than I could bear. It takes a transition to get you to re-think and reassess how you approach things and how you react to changes and issues that come about. This is the longest post ever but here we go... The Background  I’m a middle child.    Middle child syndrome set in long ago and I’m definitely a people pleaser, mediator if you will. I love it and sometimes hate it.    I want to be mediated on once in a while! Can someone sorta let me just BE there and NOT be involved in the resolution? The answer is usually no.   Pressing on, I got married a little young, 23 to be exact and proceeded into full Stepmom (two amazing kiddos), wife, worker, grad student, gym go...

Another snow day so I got time to reflect. Call it cabin fever- it feels insightful... Funniest thing - I can do what I want 😘 I've been reminded by so many situations in life showing truth lately, I decided life happens in collaboration with you or TO you.  Lots of people come to this realization alone a long time ago. I believe most of us though go with the flow to be normal.  Pssh .. Not me   Exhibit a:  I took this pic ... ON PURPOSE! I was cleaning, recycling, dumping out old flowers and realized, this isn't fun. So I took a fun picture, weirdly made me feel better.  Lesson: be weird. Who cares who's watching? Silly personal selfies - highly recommended.  Exhibit b: She's gorgeous. I'm biased bc I'm her mom 😘 but seriously I have had to realize I had the best mama. That's awesome. I'm not her. We were made of the same basic stuff and we have different experiences so our focus on certain things  will be opposites. I'm a Taurus, she's a Leo ...

This is/was me ... I remember tugging at my lack of fatty skin and saying "5 more lbs and I'll be hot"... I remember being over 250 lbs and saying "I'll be skinny again some day" Just this morning I thought "you could stand to lose another .. nothing" I was looking through pictures like the above and found a theme.  Assumptions.  I just knew people assumed I was fat, I knew people assumed I wasn't as skinny as my sisters. I assumed I was always gonna be chubby and "big boned". I assumed myself into ED- not a guy named Ed, ...an eating disorder. When I was in HS and college I was a student athlete. Hurdles and that beautiful black or red track with my spikes or cross trainers was my domain. I loved every interval, every 105 degree Texas practice. I loved it all because I was good at it and felt powerful. There's nothing like the snap of your spikes while three stepping 100 m hurdles and crossing a split second before your competito...

>First off - BWAHAHAHA! I love those commercials. Next, Salsa!! I put that ish on everything! Why? Because its delicious.  I can't substansiate this next statement b/c there's so much conflict  and research but YES! I do believe it speeds up MY particular digestive process. and I KNOW that  for a fact I  - ya know - GO !.. more and better with peppers and spicy stuff. . Ok that's a gross first paragraph. On to the next if I didn't lose ya with the stool speak... (text).. What did I make!? I made quinoa ...stuff". I dunno! I'll name it below before I publish this :/ #procrastinatororinnovator??;) I like quinoa so I made it in bulk in my rice cooker (telling yall - time saver!!), then added bell pepper - red and yellow- onions, garlic and b/c  Kroger had a Manger's Day Sale (love those yellow/red stickers) I got tarragon for $0.99. It looked like it needed to meet my kitchen experimentation. I had to buy it. FYI -- Stay tuned for T...